To say my life was like everyone elses would be a dream, born of a doomed relationship and maybe I'm a constant reminder of a mistake, but they never show it and that much i know how much my parents love me and even though they never really get on, its the best of a bad situation. I am blessed in other ways though, i may not have parents that are married to each other, but i do have a great network of family with the furthest aunt living 800 metres away! :) I have (or had for the moment) an aunt and uncle who live 12 houses from me and have no kids and they are my other parents...
Deb and Paul have recently split up, and the phrase knocked me for six couldn't be more true! Picture this: I'm in their house, like i am every day, watching CSI and Deb comes in and says that Paul is moving out because he isn't happy. After that is still a blur to be honest, i remember thinking this HAS to be some kind of joke and was waiting for the punch line...all i got was a punch in the gut!!
See my parents aren't married and never were, as hard as that was to cope with growing up-kids telling me i don't have a dad because he doesn't live with me and telling me what a bastard was! But all that time i had my other "parents" and they were the coolest aunt and uncle, all my cousins loved Deb and Paul. Deb was up every day and so the might as well be my surrogate mam and Paul was the only constant male figure in my life so i adored them so much. Now i feel like everything has been cruelly ripped from me.
Its been nearly 8 weeks since they separated and its getting worse with Christmas coming up, every year me my mam, granny, Deb, Paul, my other aunt and uncle and my three cousins have dinner in my house and its so much fun...this year will suck BIG time and i just want to stay in bed all day, i feel my life is just be pre-destined to fuck up!!
Roll on 2011, you cant do any worse....
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